Saying Goodbye Sucks

Today was my second to last day of work, tomorrow being the grand finale. I'm really bummed right now =\

I got to say goodbye to all my favorite morning customers, and tomorrow I'll get to say goodbye to all the evening ones... it's really staggering when it comes down to saying you're going to leave for good, how many people step up to say nice things to you. How it's been an honor to know me, and good luck, and god bless, and that I was such a sweet girl. Those little things mean a lot to me, coming from strangers. Saying goodbye to my co-workers feels surreal. They're like family to me, too... I get all weepy when I say goodbye to any of them.

It's going to be really hard to leave. Really really hard. I had a rough time saying goodbye to people I probably wouldn't miss otherwise, and it's only going to get harder once I have to walk away from people who I really don't want to part with. Everyone will, of course, still be a part of my life... and I will come back and visit often, but it's just not the same. People don't want me to go, and I don't want to leave them. It's at those times when it's hard to see the reasons why you thought it'd be a good idea to leave in the first place.

And by the way, I never thought I'd be so thankful that Kaitlyn left the state before I did. Because if she were still here, and I had to leave her on top of everybody else, this hurt would be completely intolerable.

I'm so looking forward to the new things ahead of me, but it's going to take a while before I feel this weight lift from me. It took several mopey miserable days each time I left Wisconsin to feel human again, and this is just going to be exponentially more brutal... I just hope that I have enough tasks to occupy me that I can get a grip on myself and not let that sadness take over. I have a lot of positive energies coming with me, I'm not going to have to worry about having a good life or not. But I'm just sad right now, and it's hard to see through things like this while you're in the middle of it. Meh.